Just checking in, or out as it the case may be.
Yet again life is getting really hectic around here.
Big things are happening.
Life changing things are happening.
Taking us all to a place called by so many names…change, transition, fluctuate, restyle, regenerate, transform.
We don’t handle change well…or maybe it’s just that I don’t handle change well.
I like solid ground. I like schedules. I like predictability, stability, the plotted course.
I don’t care for unknowns. I am a constants kind of girl.
Then again, there is a part of me that craves the unknown.
That part of me is dancing barefoot off the trodden path. Wind in my hair, smile on my face. Nothing but me and what lay ahead.
That part of me is the one who stepped forward years ago and accepted Jesus.
As I stood at the altar, just He and me, everything was new.
I didn’t have tomorrow plotted and planned, and I certainly new I had no control over it. Change.
The transition was rocky as I told everyone about this great gift I had been given and watched as most glazed over, some vehemently, and some just turned coldly away.
As days went by, people watched for this new found faith to fluctuate…praise be to Him, that course didn’t waver.
My life restyled in the early years. The fellowship, intimate…the testimony, thrilling.
Life still surprises me with twists and turns so sharp and fast…it threatens to hurl me over the edge.
That’s where He is.
Just over the edge, where reason meets faith.
He is good to catch me when the best laid plan fails, when reality falls so short of expectation, when my heart cries out, “I can’t! What were you thinking? You got the wrong gal for the job!”
He wraps me lovingly in his arms.
Wipes the grime and mire from my heart and mind.
He whispers sweetly in my ear, “I don’t make mistakes. If you could do it, all by yourself, you wouldn’t need me. My glory can’t be revealed when you are at what you call your best. Just rest here in my arms and I will do the work through you. You won’t understand the why and how. People won’t understand, but they are not the ones I have commanded you to fear. I have it all figured out and in the end you will see that my way is best. Just rest and trust. Put your hope in me and I will walk you through it. I will reveal my glory in your weakness and people will praise me because of what you have gone through. Are you ready?”
I am hoping to write more soon. There is so much happening, and I want to share, but so much is unknown and up in the air right now. And Dad if you are reading this, no, it’s not the house, thanks to God’s glory shining through your generosity and the work provided by our customers we should be here a while longer! So I strongly suggest you subscribe to the blog in a reader, that way the sporadic posting won’t be as annoying and you won’t miss a thing.
Lovies, DJ

